Saturday, July 31, 2010
{ 10:46 pm }
Hello blogosphere! Wow. Ya, I know it's been awhile since I last blogged here. It's been quite some time I actually updated this blog of mine & yes, this blog held lots of memorable moments throughout my poly life so far. Lots of stuff happened for the last 4 months. Wowwwwww. I abandoned my blog for 4 months. Well, it was kind of a transition for me from blogging to tumblr. Butttt, lots of things happened within this 4 months of absence. Well, I know I update tumblr regularly due to my hectic schedule, but, I miss the satisfaction of letting out all my feelings here in my blog.
Well, ya lots of things changed within the 4 months. I'm currently in year 2 as a student of Republic Polytechnic. Life as a student is kinda complicated right now as we start to get the "real deal" - learning modules which are related to my diploma. So far, I think i'm kinda screwed for nearly all of my modules. I aced in Quality Management module. I kinda like the module but I really hated the faci, who's kind of a douche seriously. But, ohwells.
I'm doing average for my Physics module. Frankly speaking, I'm pleasantly surprised that I am able to cope with Physics since it has been my all time nemesis since secondary school. This is the only class which I learn together with the students from SAS. They are really a bunch of inquisitive people. A group of workaholics & mind you, they are damn smart man! Hats off to these group of people man. I mean, they've helped alot in helping me understand this module.
I'm kinda interested in aircraft materials though I got a freaking F for my UT1. But, I'm starting to pick up & my daily grades are consistent. The other 2 modules, Aerodynamics and Electronics, are a total pain in the ass & totally fucked up facis who are just making the situation even worse. But then, I am left with no choice but to study my ass off. Yes, I am studying. Revising, I mean. I do agree poly life doesn't suit my lifestyle since I've never been good in self-learning. However, I gotta deal with reality that I have to start to wake up if wanna succeed. I'm trying to change my attitude towards the classes, no matter how fucked up the faci can be.
IG life has been pretty hectic nowadays, with the training of new intakes etc. Lots of problems. Lots of em'. Trying to deal with those problem as professionally as I can. However, I must agree to the fact that the juniors are totally awesome! And, also they are quite a talented bunch! Ya, we might not communicate often. Okay. Let me re-phrase that. I've not been communicating much with them. Ya. But, still, I really appreciate the hard work they put in, always coming down for practices. I also love my batch too. They've been splendid! I might not say this everyday, but, I love my Nagas. I appreciate they're co-operation during trainings too.
Reflections 2010 is also around the corner, hence, intense preparations have begun.Nothing is more challenging than producing your own show. All the admin matters, marketing strategies, it can drive you crazy! Hahahahaha. However, So far, I'm able to deal with it. We'll see as time passes by. Hehehehe.
Other than that, I was recently inducted as a member of GammaRays. For those of you who have no idea what GammaRays is, it's a fusion rock gamelan group. Ya. Speaking of which, I just went for their gig at Bukit Panjang CC just now. It was awesome! Well, I'm kind of excited being part of GammaRays right now. & I have never been so awestruck ever since joining. They have a vast amount of talent in the group. Everyone's so talented. Me & Rasydan are kind of the newbies. Hahahaha. I got lots more to learn & though it might be complicating sometimes, I'll pull through. (:
Other than that, I have been in an 11 month long relationship with Siti Nurfazlun binte Tahir. Our anniversary will be oh so soon. Hehehehe. Excited much?
Also, there's been lots of changes recently too. Positive change. It's really nice to see people changing for the better. Though, sometimes, things can hold us back. What I am about to say next is as a reflection for all of us, for both you & also me.
As what I've mentioned just now, some of my friends are turning over a new leaf, beginning a new lease of life, a new chapter, whatever you wanna refer it as to. Personally for me, I truly respect people who are willing, in one way or another, make a positive change to themselves, because, I myself, sometimes keep procrastinating and holding back my plans to change myself for the better. Therefore, what they did, for me, was quite huge & impactful. To a point where sometimes, they just feel too self-conscious about their new perspective of life and opinions from other parties. You know, the feeling you get, everytime you get a new hairstyle? You'll possibly be self-conscious about the opinions of others, whether it was a right choice to change your hairstyle in the first place.
What I am emphasizing is, we should always stand for our thoughts, ideologies & religion, in this case. We should not be held back with people opinions when we decide to change because it involves our own personal lives, not others. As we begin our transition we should reflect, whether we are ready for that transition because every decision that we make in life always has its pros and cons. We just have to stand up to what we think is right and not think of the opinion of others.
To my friends who might or might not know that I am refering to them, I am happy for you guys that you've decided to make a change, a positive change. & yes, it is quite a huge step for you guys to take in your lives. However, you should always be mentally prepared for trials we might face. People can say what they like, scream their opinions out loud, but, we have to stand for our principles in life & not be affected by the environment we are in.
Bak kata pepatah, Rambut sama hitam, hati lain-lain. In this case, it all boils down to one thing,
Faith. If your faith is strong, you will pull through. Changes like this do take time for people around you to accept & to make people around you to make a change like what you did, takes up even more time.
& to those out there who still feel you're not ready yet to make the change, then, take your time to reflect. However, we have to remember, life is short and none knows their own destiny.
In life, always be the influential one not the influenced. You know what is right for yourself. Like I said, neither do i want to shoot at you for what you've done nor do I want to force change. It is just a reflection for us. Because sometimes, as humans, we rarely sit back and take a look at the big picture.
I guess that's it for now.
I'm done. (:
