Hey there. Okay, first and foremost, I would like to apologise for the irregularities in my updates. Life has been so hectic nowadays. My schedule are mostly packed by meeting and ngaji nowadays. & I can tell you that most of my personal time is now gone. It's like I only have saturday for myself, which technically isn't since I have soccer trainings over the weekends. Cool eh? -.-
Well, life has been really busy for me nowadays. Meeting, meeting & more meeting. Yes, being the vice-president of your IG (A.K.A CCA!) is super freaking tiring. What more you have 3 shows lined up close to each other! But, so far, i'm fine with how the flow is going & I must say I'm getting pretty acclimatised with my new surrounding and environment, new responsibilities and commitments. I mean, I've been through all these business during my days in the school band, so I guess I can handle this. We'll see how it goes ehhhh.
School life has also been fine. We're approaching week 15 for this semester and UT3 is just around the corner. Yes, tell me about the pressure. Time flies really fast, like seriously. Just another 1 more week before I bade my farewells to W36B. The peeps there are fine. Though our rapport is only bounded within the classroom, during breaks and for those who smoke, their smoking breaks, they're a fine group to work with. Very nice people indeed. Everyone works well with each other, now that's important.
Well, for now, I'm seriously deprived of time with family, friends and my dearest Faz. Well, I come back late each day so my relationship at home is just short conversations with everyone. By the time I arrive home, they're usually asleep. When I wake up, they're gone. I rarely get to go out for outings with my usuals. It's sad when they can't accomodate to the minority sometimes. Hmmmm. But, ohwells. I just gotta find time and squeeze them into my schedule.
It's never easy watching someone you love go through so much pain. If there's something I would want to tell you, you're someone so special to me, in fact too special that I would never want to lose. Someone I would always want to give my best. Someone who is worthwhile to be cared and loved. I'm not angry, just frustrated, frustrated that I have failed you.
I really miss your hair in my face, And the way your innocence tastes, And I think you should no that, You deserve much better than me.
Like WHOAAAAAAA! What was I doing at that age? Hmmmmm. You never know, he'll feature in some awesome metal band in the future! Hahahahahha. Okay, random.
{ 1:22 pm }
I cannot stop thinking about it. I swear. 2nd trip to Australia in between 2 years! Like wooooooooooo mannnnn. Hahahaha. Well, only this time, it's not a personal trip. I'm representing Gamelan & RP for an educational 5-day trip. Soooooooo totally happy about it. Buttttt, it'll mean leaving behind Singapore for 5 days & someone will not be very happy about it. Hmmmmmm.
The day goes by faster nowadays for me. It's like my first year in poly life is gonna end any time soon. Like WTF?
Well, tomorrow's formal day and someone will be very happy about it.
I'm Done.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010{ 2:18 pm }
He always tried so hard to make her happy.
He gets upset when he fails.
He tried to understand & he's still trying to learn.
He sometimes gets too worried for her.
He got feelings he never felt when he's with her.
He tried to share his happiness but sometimes she just don't want to.
He needs to understand that not everyone has their day.
He needs to understand her feelings and emotions more better.
He needs to understand that both of their lives are different.
He wants her to know that sometimes you just have to bravely face the hard knocks of life.
He wants her to know that though patience kills, it's the main key for her now.
He might not seem like he cares, but, he actually do.
He tried to be patient but sometimes he gets really frustrated.
He's frustrated because he can't change her.
He still hopes she'll live a more optimistic life.
He knows his word might hurt but he just wants her to know.
He does not want her to give up.
He wants her to get better.
He wants her to smile and laugh again.
He's still waiting there for her.
He's waiting there to give her his full support.
He cannot bear to see her upset again.
He's very sorry if he followed his emotions to much.
He wants her to know that he's being to emotional nowadays.
He wants her to know it's because he misses her.
He worries for her.
He doesn't want her to be the pessimistic self.
He wants her to know that every start has an end.
He hopes she does read this.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010{ 7:30 pm }
Currently freaking addicted to this song. Dragontower by Keep Of Kalessin. It's a song written for the eurovision competition in Europe. (DUHH!) It's a songwriting competition in Europe where recording artiste write songs and compete to be the best in whole of Europe. (If i'm not wrong.) Well, it's not like the usual way their music is, but, when you have a funky arabian tune to the song, who gives a flying fuck? Hahahaha.
I'm done.
Monday, January 11, 2010{ 10:50 pm }
They are really the next big thing in my new chapter of life. I mean, I have my 6E clique during my primary school days. My ExpressO! crew, buzz ninety eight guys and the band clique during my secondary school days and now my W35F peeps, my ossuarium dudes and now THE NAGAS. Yeaaaaaa. Entrusting me as the vice-president was a total shock. But, I'll do my best in whatever way I can to lead us to more new heights. (:
Friday, January 01, 2010{ 5:09 pm }
Okay, Well, sayonara to another great year, 2009 & we welcome another year, 2010, with much hoipes and aspirations.
Soooooooo, how did I spend my last few moments of 2009? In the comfort of a place where I find guidance for the soul, with friends I knew since we were running around in diapers, talking throughout the night, with my phone in hand & msg-ing my dearest girlf.
An overlook of 2009, I can never deny that 2009 had been a great year so far. New life, New friends, new love. (:
Well...
IN 2009...
-Spent the beginning of the year down under. (AUSTRALIA!)
-Passed my O's & got results that were really beyond expectations.
-Got enrolled into RP.
-New life, New friends, New Class. W35F was the beginning of everything.
-It was also the beginning of an unexpected turn of events.
-Siti Nurfazlun Binte Tahir was her name. & there i was, back to a familiar game.
-Waiting for the perfect time, just to be woken up by Syaiful Amiril Bin Haj Mohamad, to be reminded that "you have to do something, before it's too late."
-When the clock strikes midnight on 070809, it was a start of something new.
-Joined a new family, Gamelan Naga Kencana & there starts my new adventure to another world of music.
-3 months of hard work and preparation & Kirana was another wonderful production, a new experience.
-A commendable GPA. Well, it's a start, a benchmark.
-Life starts back from square one, this time with W36B.
-More new friends made.
-& we learn and learn and learn. Got to learn more new instruments.
Well, I guess that sums up my 2009. It's what I remember anyway. No denying, it's been a wonderful year. & to all you homosapiens out there,
