Okay. Sorry for very irregular updates. Poly life is being a total bitch. Having maths module today. It's all about differentition and it's a total pain in the ass, i tell you. Total respect to my friends who took A maths for their Os. Brilliant Brains.
I also have gamelan for this week, since the peranakan festival is just around the corner. To be precise, it's this sunday. -.- Totally not confident. The music's still not totally locked. Still here and there. But, well, just give it the best. To my friends who are interested to check it out, details are here.
Msg-ed Nabb the whole of last night. Yes, my bitch for 4 years. Hahahaha. Did catching-up. Talked about school, RP, Tabby, Guys, relationships and a whole lot more random stuff. Hahahaha. She still does'nt change. Well, guess that's all for now.
I'm done.
Friday, November 20, 2009{ 11:32 am }
Listening to this song reminds me of my P6 malay class. How cikgu Hasnah uses songs to test our hearing. Hahahaha.
Thursday, November 19, 2009{ 12:14 pm }
Feeling miserable because I dropped my lappy and that caused the LCD screen to crack internally. My chicken nearly flew off my plate during the first break. Dearest Faz laughed at me. Loaned school's lappy which bloody heavy and is like shit. It's an acer tablet PC. Borrowed X's stylus. Drew stupid stuff on microsoft word. One of them is on display. Still feeling miserable. Cutting off all contacts hoping it'll be better. Peranakan festival another 2 weeks time. Feeling really tired. & that sums up this pointless post. Bye!
Wednesday, November 18, 2009{ 11:45 am }
You might not be reading this and I might be the last person you would want to talk to at the moment. But, I just want to say that I'm sorry if I'm the cause of all this mess. Never in my heart I would want to cause this to happen. I'll be more than happy to step back, if that's what you wish for. Blood is thicker than water, they say. I'll say, blood is thicker than anything else. I'll be willing to do anything, just to put back together what I've taken away and what I've destroyed. Though your words really hurt, I deserve it. I know I've caused alot of trouble. I hope you'll be willing to accept my apology. The most sincere, from the depths of my heart.
Monday, November 16, 2009{ 11:45 pm }
Ingin ku lari dari situasi ini, Ingin saja ku bawa diri, Cuba kau cuba untuk memahami isi hati, Namun yang tau, hanya diriku sendiri.
Bahtera ini yang kita lalui, Tiada semanis seperti ini, Tiada lagi aku bermimpi, Tamat sudah penantianku ini.
Ingin ku lari dari kenyataan, Oh tuhan Kau berilah jalan, Kau berikanlah aku kesabaran, Untukku tempuhi ini cubaan.
Tiada ucapan untuk mengungkap ini kerinduaan, Maafkan khilafku jika ia punca keresahan, Pilunya malam ini tiada bandingan, Tiada insan di sini aku keseorangan.
Ini karya bukan dari seorang anak seni, tapi luahan tulus dari diriku ini, maafkan aku jikaku lukakan hati, aku hanya seorang insan ciptaan Illahi.
{ 2:02 pm }
Feeling very miserable even when it seems like I'm not. Living a life that I never wanted. Words from a friend sends me down a whirl of confusion. So many questions unanswered. Tired, shagged, jaded. The only hope is waking up to see your smile for another day. Will you wait for me?
I still owe someone a hug.
Friday, November 13, 2009{ 1:04 am }
Read Shak's recent blog post and certainly found logic behind it. I miss my carefree days too. I miss pissing Sulaiman's ass off. I miss bullying Nabilah, along with Faez and Wirda. I miss going for sectionals. I miss playing my trombone. I miss playing the euphonium. I miss counting down after band practices. I miss commanding during drills. I miss eating together at the canteen. I miss running around the canal and irritating the shit out of Nabb at the same time. I miss going for Jammings. I miss cheering on Team Singapore during the Beijing olympics on the LCD TV with the guys. I miss sitting at the round table with my group of friends and laugh our asses off. I miss the lessons in class. I miss the chapteh we used to play. I miss staying back till late just to play soccer. I miss the trips I had with the band to Port Dickson and Genting. I miss doing ASPIRE when we're actually not. I miss shooting paper bullets with Rafi at Wenguang when he's sleeping during ASPIRE. I MISS MY YCSS 08' BATCH ALOT!
{ 12:35 am }
Heyy there. Here I am updating, like FINALLY. Currently, I just finished my 500+ word RJ for comms. Yeaaaaa. The word limit was 350 actually, but, I'm always like that when it comes to a module that I really like. & my new comms faci is like totally awesome! Hahahaha. He has a really cool British accent and it somehow reminds me of professor Snape from HP. I freaking don't know why. & he does'nt have censorship which means there's alot of vulgarities in his conversations and stuff. Oh ya, he's only 29 and he's done his PhD. Which means, he is fit to be called a doctor [Not the doctors you see laa when you're sick.] .
Well, there's UT tomorrow. Maths, anyway. From problem 1-4. Stayed back for a while jsut now to offer help to Syai. I could'nt offer much since my own understanding for the object is pretty bad, but, I hope it was of much help. (:
There's still gamelan for me nowadays. It's been really taxing, I must say. We're preparing for our performance for peranakan festival @ SMU on the 29th november 2009. It's free btw, so for those who missed out my performance for Kirana, this might be your chance to watch me perform again. So ya, do come down peeps! :D
Well, My parents just informed m while I'm doing my RJ just now that they're gonna send me off to Australia for my next vacation. Decided to postpone it to the other vacation which is after UT3 which is much more longer. I'm feeling pretty torn, so to speak. A part is me is somewhat happy, while the other's not. Happy that I'll be able to meet the friends that I've made again, but not happy because old memories seem to come back to haunt me again. Oh wells, life must go on. I've opened the new chapter in my life and the old one has been long left behind. I'm a new person now with you and I don't wish to turn back.
Anywayssss, to my peacedudes, I'm free on saturdays so i really look forward for an outing together! Ape2 tekan ehs, bebs and mat [mat satu je, jadi s tak perlu. XD] .
Intuition's telling me that behind the smile, lies a mountain of worries. I just can't ignore this feeling. I might be wrong, I might be right. I'm not to worry, you say. But if I don't, who's there to?
Monday, November 09, 2009{ 9:09 am }
If life was like a player, I'll leave last saturday on playback. (:
Wednesday, November 04, 2009{ 1:59 pm }
Sometimes, I just wish that he could be around the house more often.
Monday, November 02, 2009{ 2:33 pm }
Gay partners. I've been rejected. :(
Haha! Guess who! Faazzzzz here!!
I'm so borred laaaa so Ahmad, who's always so nice, gave me, willingly gave me, his password to his blog, and sooo, I shall entertain myself.
OMG, I STILL CAN'T GET OVER THE FACT THAT I PRANKED HIM TWICE! HAHA. AM SOOOO LOVING IT! :)
Ehh, more to come ah. More.
Wonder if he will scold me. Hahah. Oh yeah, did you know that snails are actually two sexes in one? I seriously didn't know that. They have a penis and a vagina. Go Wiki it, if you don't know. Interesting, but I had to watch their mating video, and it grossed me out.
Oh yeah! KIRANA WAS THE BOMB! Still can't believe it's over! & it was nice to see Shak there too! & the plan to introduce two people to each other failed 'cause someone was too shy. Hahaha. But no worries. Double date will come up soon.
I've been dreaming of Ahmad since Friday, ain't I sweet? Haha. But he doesn't dream of me, how sad is that?? Oh yeah, I forgot, Mirah might punch him later or something.,'cause I told her we were fighting and she actually BELIEVED me. Heeeee, pranking people is so funn.
& Ahmad finally found his laptop charger. That forgetful person ah. Aiyoooh.
Okay, I think that's enough for now. Toodles~!
{ 12:17 pm }
2 pictures that I totally love right now. Hahahaha.
Okayyyy, it's been awhile I updated this thing here. Hahaha. Sorry, very long weekend. Kirana, Start of my classes at Perdaus and of course Tahfiz classes. UTs coming soon then peranakan festival performance at SMU! Walao. FML. Hmmm. I need help juggling my time. HELP!
